seriously, can someone take care of me?????

i have been feeling rather overwhelmed by my life lately and usually i can handle crisis that come my way. all day long i can deal with the crying, the whining, the "i wants" , endless laundry, interruptions, and all the other fun stuff that comes with having children but when i come home from work there is thing that freaks me out, makes me hide in my room and watch downloaded tv shows til there is a three way screaming fight in the kitchen that pulls me out of my slump and makes me create it........ DINNER! i used to love to cook, to prepare delicious meals for my family. now i am burned out. i think i has to do with lack of time to create meals from scratch or maybe everything i put in front of asher is something he doesn't like (regardless of the fact that he loved it the night before). of course i would just be a a whiner myself and should just suck it up.........

so anyway, not much actual school work has been happening lately. lucien is dong alot of felting. he made me a felted heart with a happy face yesterday and then started to make a turtle for lynn but broke his needle. oops, we need to have back ups of those. he got into felting at farmhouse and bought a little kit from marnie but then didnt have the right sort of foam to felt on. we found some good sponges at superstore and a felting lucien went!!

now it always takes me forever to finish a post and my previous ranting has been deflated and diminished by the fact that i went to the store to buy some eggs to make my crazy family a dessert and also bought a bottle of wine which i took over to sonya's nd hung out (hid out) for a couple of hours. i called jima from the store of course. it was nice, i painted my nails, talked some gossip and we talked about dead dads. hers, mine, and others. it made me want to go out actually but im gonna stay home instead and get my veggie list done tonight instead of stressing over it tomorrow. all the kids are gonna hang with me at the store tomorow so i need to prepare some fun things to keep them occupied. til i have another minute or two.
*mwah*

i logged on to delete this blog

i remembered this half hearted attempt at a blog the other day and thought that maybe it was time to get rid of it. logging on tonight (while listening to papa brush the kids' teeth) i read my old entries and actually enjoyed reading them. ash is coming to me asking for booby cause it is bedtime and so now i have walked down the hall and am multitasking once again, one handed typing i am your master! lucien was rather grouchy and treated everyone around him like crap today. he definitely has his moments. i think i am going to hang on to this blog now because i thoroughly enjoyed reading my sporatic previous posts. i have this idea that maybe this can be a good way to keep track of our learning as well. sarah, our new teacher contacted us yesterday but lucien was with steve and did't get to talk to her. i am pretty bummed about old sarah leaving the program because we had really worked out a good system and lucien had great rapport. since lucien is doing "school work" i have tried to get asher involved as well. of course when there is a science experiment to be done asher is right into it but it is harder to come up with things for him while lucien is doing worksheets. (i am surprised at how much he likes worksheets) i have a box of alphabet games that i should take a look at for asher, i think he will get a kick out of those and perhaps be a better sport than his brother (i can only dream :)