i should be doing the recycling

i should be sorting the recycling and i have started....i got all of the cardboard boxes out of the garage and sorted into waxed and un.....stupid waxed cardboard......anyway, noone is home at the moment not even my baby and so just felt like getting some things out there. i really don't like my birthday for some reason, its not like i have had particular hopes for it but it just always seems to go wrong or something. yesterday wasnt too bad, everything got accomplished but i sure did overbook. i had to do my deliveries (ups fedex type), sort my veggies, deliver my veggies, and last of all go to a birthday party for my neice who just happens to be born on my birthday weee. to top it all off my inlaws are visiting and they got to experience the display of me freaking out. they were all cool about it as only they can be. have i ever mentioned before how much i love my inlaws? well not here but i have somewhere im sure. i woke up this morning to the phone ringing and after i peed and listened to the msg i turned the computer on to see i had a happy birthday email from my lovely friend and roommate tracy....man i love tracy and miss her so much but she is off having wonderful adventures in africa. she and her tripmates have a blog about it here http://jdandtracyinafrica.blogspot.com/ anyway, i do have to get back to work before jamie gets home and checks my progress (that sounds bad but its just that he does sooooo much for me that i like to reciprocate) so im gonna get a pic from christmas up here cause i think blogs always look better with some flash and love you
auds

and now i am sick

christmas, always the time of year to get sick, and i do.....asher has been really good with peeing in the toilet today (much better than yesterday) and i got $50 from msp...why? i am not sure, i am suspicious and am willing to spend a long time on hold to find out why, i dont want to cash this check only to have them turn around and say "you owe us!" forgot to phone some of my customers yesterday and tell them whats in their veggie bins this week, i feel like im losing it big time......sigh, busy day tomorrow. at least i dont have lucien so i cant make any mistakes with him like yelling at him again....
auds

where did i think i would have the time for this?

as i sit here, typing one-handed (its not what you think) i wonder where the time is going to come from, where will i find time to fix the hot tub lid? make gates for my garden? hang my clothes on the line? or for that matter, shower, clean MY room or even think!!
ahh, today lucien came from his dads and crawled into bed with us cause it was early "i need more sleeps mom" when we finally felt like getting up it was already 10 and lucien was way cranky and remained so until 2-ish...man i don't really know how to handle it anymore and i just want peace and respect in our house so im just gonna concentrate on virtues for both myself and him and our whole family really.....lead by example..........i hate...no no not hate but dislike and detest the way i have gotten into the habit of yelling......it seems like thats what i have to do now to get results and i am feeling so tired that by the end of the dayi have no strength to resist any longer and what happens then? he stays up til 10 or 11.......
this is my daily whine
auds

first post

i guess it was only inevitable that i break down and start writing a blog since i have recently bought a cell phone as well, something i remember saying long ago i would never have. i mostly want to write the doings and happening of hooleyhouse and my family for our friends and family to keep track of what we are doing with our lives. and for you too tirza, loyal picture viewer. i think that maybe for now i will not tell jamie about this but i cant think of the exact reason why. i have to say that today has been a horrible day and was preceded by another horrible day....its like one furiously busy day after the next and i just want to get a handle on my life....we will see how it goes
auds