middle of the night musings

so here i am smoking and wrapped up in my Peanuts blankie up on top of my neighbourhood.  at least being on my roof feels like that.  if i cant see everything from up here, i sure can hear it.  the deer in the yard across the street testing the gate as part of some pre-dawnly routine, the dried alder leaves scritching across the roof, my cats, obnoxiously cleaning themselves as they accompany me on the roof.  there is also the ocean, so close if i only turned around to face it, sounding so far away, the waves crashing more like surf than they usually are.  three meteors have passed since i came up here and i keep imagining i see a brightening of light on the edge of my perception but im sure it is just cause i really want to see northern lights even if it is just a glimmer but this gets me thinking about the freaky light cally and scott have been seeing in their yard.  stopping and starting, brighter and dimmer, zigzagging around.  it starts to freak me out and THAT gets me thinking about the light elizabeth and i saw at the bottom of milford or topcliff rds.  it came up to our car and circled round, stopping and hovering until it just flew off again.  ok, it is official, i am off of this roof now!  crack goes the gutter as i fumble over it onto the roof below and tumble in my bedroom window.  of course knocking over previously mentioned obnoxious cats and disturbing children along the way.  and i still cant sleep so i clean some drawers in the kitchen and write this post. 

taken from my new favorite view.  g. roy gravel pit

hello hello hello

i just have so many thoughts running through my mind that i cant settle on one thing to concentrate on.  there is the red, red sky  two days ago with clouds streaking across the panorama making for a dramatic sunset, enjoying a drink on the beach with friends at the spit.  there is the hot cedar fueled fire the same night that sizzled my hair while i was trying to save my dogs from becoming tinder.  there is the thick brine smell in the air for the past two weeks that reminds me every time i step outside that the ocean is only 100ft from my door.   there is dancing barefoot at the pub for hours with my eyes closed, jello shots that make me shudder, 3 year old daughters opening birthday presents, chocolate chip birthday cakes with pink icing, and the CUPCAKES!  cherry vanilla, chocolate peanut butter, buttercake, lemon meringue, chocolate huckleberry........sigh.  what else do i have?  oh yeah, there is that homeschooling thing :)  i am a little irritated that lucien's "teacher" will not be returning in the fall, again.  we didnt bond as closely with the second sarah as we did with the first so i guess it isn't such a huge deal.  i still miss her, lucien misses her.  other than that, i really hope we can get his grade three math book finished over the summer and move onto grade four when real school starts in the fall.  he seems to have caught the money making bug recently, has been selling gnomes that he has made himself and after he had a blowup cause i pointed out he could be selling them for more because of how much time he put into them he declared he was done with gnomes and has now moved onto drawing cartoon books. hmmmm, i think we need to have a money talk soon.  off to the creek now and maybe a little wedding crashing, will be back with some pics to share.

you CAN pick your family, but their noses are off limits

my brother and i were talking on the phone the other night about how we have been siblings by choice for nearly thirteen years and all the crazy and amazing changes we have been through.  we talked about my children and how much he truly loves and enjoys them. "i could seriously hang out with them all day." we talked about collective consciousness vs. aliens as an excuse for widespread pyramid building.  we talked about love and lack of love, lovers and lack of lovers.  we talked about how much younger, skinnier, cuter, and hairier we used to be.  we talked about true blood and how hot yet disturbing it is.  and now i have lost my train of thought and have no idea why i started this post in the first place except maybe it was to  tell you all how much i love my brother.  now, here are some lovely pics about what we have been up to the past few days.

chocolate huckleberry cupcake

give a kid a box and they will play in it all day

let them have scissors, and they will cut it to shreds

unca brynne showing off his skills

peaceful morte lake

(when there aren't eight kids and three dogs running around)